In the midst.........

I've been going through one of my friend's blog and found it quite interesting, there she wrote about friends and the friendship. These are really very easy words to say but bloody hard to justify. I've been recently experiencing some down in my both student as well as personal life. I've been through a breakup,then a few stupid decisions which completely ruined everything for me.
                                                                                    From my childhood I always thought that there is really something called "Friendship" but when I grew up all I found was its nothing as such,people come to your life with some needs to be fulfilled and when they are done with their job they just walk away and you are just left behind thinking "What I've done??"....and then one day you realizes that its a part of life and if you wanna live then accept the truth.
                               Recently, I came in contact of my very old friend and fortunately with her friend also.I was into both of them very much. But as you all know,things change and the same happened with me.I tried to be neutral to both of them and was determined that I will never spoil their friendship because of me,but when I got this feeling that I am spoiling everything I tried to walk away without being noticed by them. But when asked by my friend that why I'm not being normal to her I told her what I felt but when she asked me the reason I did a stupid thing, I told the secret conversation b/w me and her friend and what her friend felt about me.I never had any intention of causing trouble for them but the particular time when I told her......I became the Culprit.I could have lied and made the things normal but all I thought was she will understand what I meant.She was not wrong on her behalf but that day I realized that there are some things which are meant to be within ourselves.But it was late by then,,,,

 And "In The Midst of making things back to normal again,,,,,,I Loose It all!!"